it’s almost like the better i do, the more my feeling of inadequacy actually increases, because i’m just going, ’any moment, someone’s going to find out I’m a total fraud, and that i don’t deserve any of what i’ve achieved. i can’t possibly live up to what everyone thinks i am and what everyone’s expectations of me are.’
It probably wasn’t advisable to go to college and room with a complete stranger who I had no idea who they were, or like, you know, share a bathroom with eight other people. That was my rebellion, in a funny way, was my insistence to be normal and do normal things. Every day was a new day, and I just had to see how it went.
it’s almost like the better i do, the more my feeling of inadequacy actually increases, because i’m just going, ’any moment, someone’s going to find out I’m a total fraud, and that i don’t deserve any of what i’ve achieved. i can’t possibly live up to what everyone thinks i am and what everyone’s expectations of me are.’